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Sitting in random T Block classroom with Jkok and it's really weird cause the chess club just invaded the classroom(who even knew there was a chess club in VJ? its really strange they're like having such a fun time 3 people and 3 chess boards but who am I to judge? maybe they think we're weird too:/) Anyways heading to Bruno's for dinner with the clique later, yumz!

Concert's just over last week and that's the end of my dance journey in VJ! Goodness, definitely has been a hell of a ride, from Music Fest 2011, Teacher's Day/Farewell Assembly Performances, Victorian Affair, OpenHouse, Moscow and Vivere Di Danza 2012, not to mention all the drama in between and all the awesome friends and experiences I got out of it:) Thankful for all my friends that came down to watch the concert! Have a vase of flowers at home hehe!

( Vivere Di Danza! )



Enjoying the last few days of "rewarding myself for working so hard for so long", over-eating, over-sleeping, over-thinking.

Fail!!! My fast from social media has lasted a day before I got back on Facebook and starting stalking chiobus again(life is so unfair why can't we all be beautiful have skinny arms and thighs!) Gotta make this post short and quick cause I'm suppose to be studying for my chem a level SPA tomorrow oopsies!

Anyways, had a sudden revelation today during math lecture, sigh, how much i really miss cedar and my secondary school friends, how different I've been since entering JC. What a corny topic but my old life is really something that deserves to be missed, (quick trip to FB for some noob photo of me and my friends in cedar haha!) Popped over to theleeway.blogspot.com, lee always records the crazy memories the best and I wonder if its just me but do people who have no idea what went on actually understand what she's saying? 

look at us trying at 16 to look cute lolz, and geraldine's long skirt and eliqah's weird hair and me begging mar to braid my fringe and tian's forever failed hair cut and share probably borrowed that PE shirt and lee giving her gross but still admittedly quite cute face and michelle and leena smiling cause they apparently weren't fighting that day(inserts memory about how leena and mich hid in the same cubicle while ponning PE and got caught by mrs chew, hanan the unfortunate third party) this could go on for a pretty long time, but I guess I get my own drift. 

Twitter (still haven't redownloaded the app, trying to see if everyone's whining has an effect on my mood, but I just feel really bored with no outlet for my madness, wanted to tweet about how it would be really cool if I was a chocolate, maybe more people will actually like me! just kiddinggggg) occasionally pops up with "I miss cedar/4S" tweets, what's not to miss! So blessed and I can't believe I can only see it now how much i should have treasured those memories and my time with my friends. Friends are really seasonal in a sense, don't feel that bitter that we don't meet up anymore, just grateful that we'll forever be good friends! It's so hard for anyone to understand our inside jokes and all, kinda makes me sad I have no one to laugh at old things with, shall try with Mar tomorrow if we have time hahaha! My friends are such awesome people, make you feel normal though you're practically insane, making up random stories just to entertain ourselves, really makes me feel like when I'm having those "awkward kb moments" i actually know where my roots are. sigh, really have to maintain in jc, don't really know what people say behind my back, feel like I really deserve to be hated sometimes cause I'm such a bitch sobz. Amelia and Tess quoted "awkward kimbo moments", makes me realize how much closer i've got to them cause they know me so well, SIGHHHHH.

I don't want to grow up anymore, I don't want to be mature and sane and have to deal with difficult situations, I just want to be in a happy bubble FOREVER!!! I don't want to be understanding, I want to hate the world for being unfair to me even if it is my fault, I want to be irrational and selfish and complain over the phone for hours bitching about everything!!! and also to play with the sugar and creamer and maple syrup in macs without being judged but oh well.

Random Note: Thankful for Clar because she let's me use the micropipette to pretend to extract her brain cells during bio SPA(i'm so going to fail tomorrow), I think it'll be really fun to use the inoculating loop to blow bubbles, just saying. OK my true thoughts and true self kinda freak me out!!!  

On the bright side, makes me think more about how to make the best out of the time left in VJ(dance is ending in 4 days!!!). Here's to not looking fat and making mistakes during dance and that I won't do something stupid during SPA(like setting something on fire).


Cheer up Lee!!! You're a QT:D

Making a list of people to catch up with after Concert, hope it works out, I miss everyone but I don't even dare to make dates now cause I can't keep my promises.

Moscow pictures are up and I'm over my moody phase so here's how my trip has been and also what I've been up to once we hit singapore! (omg i sound like some popular kid who's blog is super famous and everyone's interested in my life HAHAHA, omg self-denial much! coming up with the starting sentence is always hard for me!) 


( Moscow! )


INVESTITURE



Thank you House Comm for all the memories and all the good friends I've got to know because of it:)


Last Assembly Presentation for Vgems!!!


RPROJ, my beautiful friends!!! and really beautiful models omg died!!!

went shopping today at town for our neon yellow opening item costume with Tessa and Lorraine Ang Yi Bin, school's been really boring and draining after Moscow, busy with preparation for Dance Concert! This week's SPA and Concert week, I don't know where my mind has been sigh, wanna do reflections because I think I need to reflect on things but I just haven't been thinking lately, feeling quite out of sorts.

Hello to being a bit hollow.